AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH.

That feels a little better.

I need coffee.

I'm Rachel Green from Friends!

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created by stomps.

There are some things that you just can not explain to others who have only looked in from the outside.

For example... I just got off the phone with an 80 year old woman who is a very good friend of mine. She is almost 4 times my age, although that never is an issue between us. We don't have a grandmother/granddaughter relationship... We are just friends.

I also have a network of women across the world that I can count on anytime I need anything. It is amazing to know that there are people out there who care about others so much, that they would drop anything anytime they are called on. Can you imagine receiving over 400 sympathy letters when your husband passes away? Or Christmas presents when you cant afford to buy anything yourself? Or help finding a job when moving to a new city? Or even just having a place to stay when you want to go on a roadtrip?

For those of you who know what I am talking about... I am sure you understand. No, it is not a cult. It is not buying friends. Its something that just cant really be put into words.

On the outside, those looking in don't understand it. On the inside, those looking out can't explain it.

So sleepy....

So I have been sick for 6 days now? All I want to do is crawl into bed and sleep, although I haven't been able to sleep properly. I want to sit and enjoy a nice big meal, although I haven't been able to eat anything without feeling sicker.

So last night I did my standard "I am going to pretend I am not sick" and went out to play benchball regardless oft he fact that I haven't eaten or slept and am just a mess in general. Probably not the best idea. We got killed. Not just by the fact that the other team beat us by a million goals, but we were all doubled over in exhaustion by the end of the game.... Actually to be realistic, it was more like halfway through the game. I guess if everyone else was dying too and they weren't sick, it should make me not feel quite as bad about it.... A theory that would work of course if I didn't still feel crappy today.

Maybe I should try eating something.

I got hit on by a girl!!!

A very scary girl. She kept asking me weird questions about the music and whether I liked the music. Then kept asking me to dance with her. When I told her I didn't really want to dance, she kept asking me weird questions. "Do you like this music?" "You like dancing?" "you want to dance with me?" "you don't want to dance with me?" "why don't you want to dance with me?" "Is all this attention weird for you?" (what attention? Attention from a chick?)

Then I told her I wasn't really in the mood to dance... And I thought she was going to beat me up. She was kind of scary and twice my height, and looked really offended. Then she kept reassuring me that she wasn't gay and just wanted to dance. She was creepy!

So I guess I learned my lesson.... Actually, not really.... How exactly do you avoid getting hit on by girls?

You can get over any fear if you face it often enough.

That is what I decided today at least... After driving back and forth from Toronto to St. Catharines 5 times in the last week, I have finally gotten over my fear of the Skyway bridge. If you have never driven over it, this is a scary bridge... Split in the middle, sides low enough that you can see over them and winds high enough that it is often difficult to control your steering.

Today was the first day that I managed to drive over it without my knuckles going white! I was impressed, I think I inherited my fear of bridges from my father... thanks dad.

you can read more reasons that this is a freaky bridge though....
http://collections.ic.gc.ca/hamilton/skyway2.htm

I am officially homeless.

I have a roof over my head when I sleep, but don't have a place to work! We got kicked out of our normal desk space today and I have just spent the first two hours of my morning wandering around our offices looking for a place to sit. We finally found one, but now it is looking like we are about to be kicked out again. Good thing that I can work from home if I want to. At least there I know I will have a network connection and a comfortable chair!

I don't like being homeless. It just makes you feel like you are imposing on others. We are now sitting at workstations in the middle of SC instead of sitting in the middle of purchasing. I don't think anyone really likes us here. We keep getting dirty looks.

Oh well. I guess this is what happens when you are barely in the office. People kind of forget about you needing a place to work.

I am on a book reading mission. So it seems at least. I keep going to bookstores and leaving with way too many books, so all I have been doing is spending hours each day reading.

I am not complaining about this. I love it! A good book is so much better than watching TV. MY only problem now is that I am running out of things to read and need some suggestions.

We are starting a book club. Who wants to join?

I am the most neurotic person I know.

I guess being neurotic to start would require me to believe that I am the most neurotic person I know otherwise being neurotic wouldn't have as nice of a ring to it. Who wants to be just another neurotic person when you can be the MOST neurotic person?

I think I have a problem with rambling. And I think that the rambling problem stems from me over-thinking and over-analyzing everything. And I think that when I over-analyze everything, I read into things way to much and see things that are not there or interpret things incorrectly. And when I see things that are not there, I make up explanations as to why they are there. And when I have come up with 50 reasons that I have imagines the thing that may or may not be there in the first place, I spend hours contemplating every possible explanation. And when it comes to doing something about the original issue at hand, I find I am so befuddled by all of the different reasons that this thing that may or may not actually be happening has happened that I completely confuse the entire situation and forget what the point was in the first place. So when I am trying to make a decision about how to handle things? Sometimes it is just best to ignore it all together. Because if I choose not to ignore it, it could be a 3 day process just to figure out what I started talking about at the beginning of this paragraph.

So does that make me the most neurotic person I know? I guess it depends on how many people I know... And then depends on how many of the people I know are neurotic.... Or how many people I know are neurotic but don't admit that they are...

Okay, putting an end to this madness.

Shopping List:

Chips - Ketchup and Doritos
Nacho Chips
Salsa
Jo Louis
Hostess Cupcakes
Cookies
Apples
Cheese and Crackers
Water
Gummi Bears

I think that's a good amount of snacks for a weekend of camping....

10 years of hopes and dreams gone!!!

I went to go car shjopping yesterday because the lease on my Jetta is almost up. Since I was 12 years old I have had my eye on a Mazda Miata. They are such cute fun little cars. There are a few things that will make or break a car for me right now though... Storage space and a stereo. So the Miata apparantly comes with a 2 speaker stereo and no air conditioning! That was enough to seal the deal for me. I understand no air conditioning if its a nice day that you can put the top down, but what about those hot rainy summer days?

It also has no storage space inside and a tiny little trunk, so I guess my dream is over.

Thoughts on the Nissan X-Trail? Went to look at that one too and it has some of the coolest little features on it.